So what’s next for you? Are you dating now or are you looking to go on Bachelor in Paradise potentially?
I’m not dating, which is, like, why I went on the show in the first place because I am so bad at dating. I don’t want to date. It’s so daunting to me. But I still want the same things that I wanted when I came in, which is to find my person and to get married and have a family and have the whole shebang. So I don’t know how I’m going to do it. Paradise, I don’t know. I don’t know. It’s a big unknown for me right now. I hate it. I just don’t like giving people a chance.
How come you don’t like giving people a chance?
Because it’s so much effort to not get a first-year result. And I’m so logical that I’m just like, I’m not doing this for fun. It’s not fun. If I want to have fun, I want to hang out with my friends, I want to see my family. I want to do things that are genuinely for sure a good time.
For me, dating a random guy and seeing if we mesh is not fun for me unless I know for certain it’s going to work out, which just doesn’t make sense. But my brain’s like, It needs to work out or else it’s not worth my time. Stupid, [I know].
I understand in the sense that I would rather be friends with a guy first. I’m just not good with the pressure that comes with a first or second date.
Me neither. And then you have to foster that relationship. I’m such a fiercely loyal person. If I’m dating someone, then it’s like, Well, I got to see it through until it doesn’t work, and then I have to find someone else to see if that works. That’s daunting to me. I need to stop though. I’m 32. I need to figure it out. I have to do it eventually. It’ll happen when it needs to happen.
I feel like what is going to work will find you. But that doesn’t mean that you hide yourself.
Well, that’s what I’ve been doing.
It’s just important to be out and about, and don’t close yourself off.
That I can do.
And if dating is too daunting, then just don’t put yourself in that position right now.
Yeah, I’m not. I gave myself until summer, so I have a few more months.
And if not, Paradise is always a potential option.
Yeah, if I go. We’ll see. It’s a toss-up for me.
The Bachelor: Women Tell All, airs Monday, March 10, on ABC, and streams the next day on Hulu.
